Luke's Thoughts

What the clearing clouds reveal.

It’s been a while since I gave an update on my state of being. My last entry had me on the fringe of change. I wasn’t sure who I was and embracing this new role was proving very difficult for me. I wouldn’t suggest that me not writing for a while meant all those feelings have gone away, but I’ve been certainly better able to deal with them, thank you God.

I’ve been focusing more on prayer and less on my circumstances. It has helped and I know I’m just scratching the surface. I have a tremendously long way to go to understand and harness the full power of a prayerful life.
Prayer for me was very superficial, calculated and void of any real emotions. I could say the words but my heart wasn’t in it. I always prayed as if someone other than God was listening. It wrecked the experience for me. It was like I was talking to a distant God with an audience instead of a friend right next me with no one else around.

General Posts

Heading due south.

Last time we did a general update was when we crossed over to Newfoundland, deciding to forgo the northern route through Labrador to save time. The weather was getting colder and we could not chance being stuck in minus temperatures.

We spent 2 weeks in Newfoundland, crossing it to the north, then east, then back to the west,

It was cold but beautiful. This was our third time back to “The Rock” and I just couldnt get enough. Last time I, Luke, did it on my own by motorcycle in a bit of a rush. This time I could explore it in more detail with the family.

Luke's Thoughts

Reinvention.

We were driving to Atlantic Canada I was excited to spring up on the heels of my new found rejuvenation. After being sick on more than one front in Ottawa I was feeling better and had a new outlook on this time with my family and how to deal with the challenges. Also, the “reset” on my diet made me feel stronger. These feeling fade fast if not put into action, and the cravings also return.
It didn’t take too long before I was feeling some of those old stresses again. You don’t fix these things in a day, or week or even a month. I knew that even if I was hoping for a quick fix. In the past my fixes have been anything but quick.

People We Miss

Rich

Rich is my brother.
I’ve spent more time with him than any other person on this earth. He knows my deepest secrets and he still loves me.
When we were growing up I had the upper hand on him even though he was almost 2 years older. The moment he started to fight back that all ended : )